Posted on July 18 2019
When I was throwing up 3-4 times a day I may have looked healthy, or thin on the outside, but I wasn’t at all remotely healthy on the inside.
The truth is, I wasn’t healthy on the outside either.
The constant throwing up depleted my body of much needed nutrients and caused all kinds of problems...
I had huge boils on my skin, my hair was falling out and my teeth were decaying. I couldn’t even go to the bathroom for days at a time.
I assure you! There is so much more to being healthy than just trying to look good.
To be truly healthy you need to begin on the inside, and work out. Meaning, you have to cultivate practices in your life that allow your body to function at its best.
For me, that meant being more present with the things I was doing. Whether that was how I was exercising, how I was eating, how I was talking to myself, and even how I was interacting with others.
For example, when I was struggling with bulimia, I used to shovel food into my mouth so quickly that I wouldn’t even taste it. However, when I decided to be more present with my food choices, I slowed down and savored every bite. I started asking myself how the food I was eating would make me feel. Was it something that was good for my body?
This newfound philosophy allowed me to stop looking at food as some kind of enemy. Instead, I was able to make food choices that would make me feel better.
This simple paradigm shift in how I ate had a huge impact on my life and really transformed my relationship with food. For perhaps the first time in my life, I completely stopped dieting and worrying about restricting my calories.
In other areas of my life, I started taking time for myself each day to just think about who I wanted to be, and the happiness that I wanted to experience.
These quiet moments of mediation were extremely powerful as they allowed me to recognize my own true worth and beauty, to reinforce the truth that I was enough, and they were the beginning stages of me learning to truly love myself.
I want you to know that when you cultivate a healthy inner world, your outside will almost magically take care of itself. And even though this can often mean your body will naturally drop unhealthy weight, like it did for me, it’s not about achieving a specific size or shape.
Instead, it's about an essence. An understanding of your true worth and value...
A liberating state of mind that allows you to be exactly who you are without worrying about what others think, or how they might judge you...
An intuitiveness about who you are and what your body needs to be truly healthy.
When you stop worrying about others so much and give yourself permission to think, move, and act in a way that your body is telling you to... that’s when magic can happen.
It happened for me and I know can happen for you too.